The Unthinkable

The unthinkable has happened. A. did not get in to M.I.T. It is going to take a while to process this. MIT has been such a big part of our lives for a long, long time now. We're not only saying goodbye to the excitement and anticipation of AJ attending, we're saying goodbye to a lot of family history. If MIT were in my will, I would cut it out. This is small, so small, but I am not yet able to see the bigger picture of all the good that MIT does---for other kids. Right now, this rejection feels like a kick in the teeth--a sharp, forceful, kick in the teeth, followed by a hard right jab to the gut.

But, the unthinkable has happened and we are still here. Still breathing in and out. There is nothing for us to do now but wait to hear from other schools. God, how it sucks to be told flat out that you're not good enough. Never mind all the talk about "the match," to the kids it feels like flat out rejection. And it hurts.

Pray pray pray that the next response is an acceptance.